Cave of CloudsMy eye-covers whine with the weight of the morningCave of Clouds by stjimmyrocks
My jaw hole stretches and air is abundant
The world is gray-green and fuzzy
I cannot see my room
Color plods into focus, like the adjusting of a kaleidoscope
My eye-covers click like a beetle’s wings trying to remember how to fly
My warm cave shifts as I slide through it
I thrust away the puffy clouds and heat rushes from my body like sand through fingers
I slice my wings outwards, reaching, letting the rubber in my arms animate and
The springs in my neck crack and readjust
As I twist my brain-sphere in satisfying arcs
I am reluctant to leave my cave…
SmilingSlap a smiley face sticker onto those lipsSmiling by stjimmyrocks
Sealed with a smile
Unable to speak
Unable to eat
/So DAMN this poem’s deep. So much scholarship; [name of teacher deleted] would be proud!
References: “I think, therefore I am”—René Descartes; “I AM WHO [I] AM”—God in the Bible; “mine own image”—how God made Adam and Eve; “I ate of the one thing I could not have”—the forbidden fruit from the tree of knowledge of good and evil; “I am mine own redeemer”—a verse from the Satanic Bible.
So I was thinking about “I think, therefore I am” but worded slightly differently. I don’t remember how, but then I realized the connection. This poem has a lot to do with being positive and able to shape one’s destiny, but also is very strong and noticeably heretical (one cannot claim to be God). The idea that one can believe in one’s self and change into that belief is interesting to me, because clearly it is partially true; if we believe we can do something, we are thinking positively and attempting to become better. But it is also interesting to me because one can’t simply see that one is a butterfly or an all-powerful being and become one. This poem stands in the middle of those two ideas.
The Adam and Eve part also hints at me being genderqueer and I really like that. I also like how it keeps the poem gender-ambiguous (cough—except for the “him I will be,”—cough ) so that anyone can read it and feel more connected with the poem instead of being mad about it being male-centric again, or wondering why I chose to use just Eve (especially when I used “he” before).
Also the “I am Adam/and I am Eve/or so I believe” can be a reference to believing in the story of creation as well as believing to be a person or type of person and becoming them.
It’s also funny that God says “I AM WHO [I] AM,” because this could, in fact be God speaking! I didn’t intend for this, but it’s a whole new way to read it and it works (I think) so give the new perspective a shot. Also “I am who I am” is also a positive statement about believing in yourself—as well as or instead of the way God uses it: as his name, to prove he really is God.
“I took what wasn’t mine/and made myself my own.” Funny that. Stealing something gives you independence.
I happen to not be Christian, but that being said, I really do love the Bible and think that everyone can learn a lot from it and plus it’s a great source of inspiration (both for life and art) and often sparks great conversations (and also arguments, but come on, I’m trying to support its reading…).
Yo, I'm a strange person. I'm genderqueer--biologically female, birth name Katharine but I'd rather you call me Jren or J (androgynous name I came up with; it's a mix of Jen and Trent). Pronouns...use "they" or "he" if you must. You can call me dude (I call everyone dude) If you have a question or don't know what genderqueer is, just ask me anything you wanna know |
My interests include the following:
ART, MUSIC (including punk music, old and new), books (including comics and graphic novels), graphic design, playing violin mandolin and electric guitar (and recently, ukelele), anything sci fi, most things dark and disturbing, climbing, archery, ultimate frisbee, rollerblading, ice hockey, the colors red and black, fashion, dyed hair, tattoos, LGBTQQIA rights (did I forget anyone?), hiking, geocaching, traveling, learning about other cultures (languages, religions, etc.), philosophy, psychology, dreaming
Current obsessions (they change about yearly--"about"): German language and culture, and comic books (currently Über, Loki:Agent of Asgard, Saga, DMZ and a few others. JTHM is so my fav though! I love the NIN references lol. Also The Meathead Perspective is a great place to laugh about NIN-related stuff. sorry for the random tangent).
-My first real concert was seeing Green Day in Massachusetts on 8/16/10 and it was awesome.
-A thing I'd love to do "when I grow up" (haaaa) would be to design my own album art for my own music- would be pretty sick
-I played in a jazz band at my school (playED since I'm so busy now...want to again in college)
-my LastFm is here www.last.fm/user/stjimmyrocks so if you like any of the bands below then check my library of tunes!
-I'm a spelling and grammar freak...so tell me if I screw up; I won't get mad at you (I love parentheses and semicolons if you hadn't guessed that by now; they are my favorite punctuation marks.)
Green Day, Nirvana, Nine Inch Nails, How To Destroy Angels, Queens of the Stone Age, KMFDM, Rammstein, Die Ärzte, The Clash, The Sex Pistols, Rancid, Pennywise, The Offspring, Bad Religion, The Police, The Cure, Depeche Mode, The Beatles, The Cars, The Ramones, Rage Against the Machine, Talking Heads, Three Days Grace, REM, Jimi Hendrix, Rush, Santana, Led Zeppelin, Foo Fighters, Blink 182, Black Flag, Agent Orange, Johnny Cash, Minor Threat, The Casualties, The Exploited, Anti Flag, Rise Against, Three Days Grace, Breaking Benjamin, Seether, Pink Floyd, Peter Gabriel, The Doors, The Who, Staind, Stone Temple Pilots, Beck, Tool, The Prodigy, Marilyn Manson, Disturbed, Alice in Chains, Soundgarden, Tori Amos, Ani DiFranco, The Yeah Yeah Yeahs
...all that jazz (just look at my Last.fm that will help you a whole lot more )
Current Residence: New Hampshire (it is pretty boring here- very cold in winter, but the autumn leaves are beautiful and so is the ocean so I guess it's okay )
Favorite genres of music: punk, grunge, metal and "alternative rock"- which basically incorporates all of those (then also jazz, industrial, classical; I'm pretty open to most things)
Favorite style of art: so many....surreal, graphite pencil drawings...check my faves. Fine art is not so appealing to e. I love things that really make me think about what I'm looking at. I LOVE the ICA in Boston.